My Quest. Answered.

i read an interesting debate of an atheist about the existence of God. as a former atheist, i can understand that person's struggle, the search, the battle within. thats why i decided to share my personal thoughts here.

in my personal opinion, religions are man made. those scriptures (holly books) such as Torah, Bible, Quran, are wrote by man. ordinary man and not God Him self. many agnostic and atheist said those ancient scriptures are just tales, bunch of nice stories from thousand years ago.

when you study religions, we know that religions have flaws, religious people have flaws and history noted, so what makes those scriptures so divine?

from ancient history, human have a desire to search for truth, the fundamental question of the existence of man, or if there's a god, what is god? there're logical paradox and logical proposition about the existence of god. from paganism to semitic religions who believe in one God, man seek for truth, all great philosophers and thinkers seek to find the answers of life, the essence of everything.

we know that philosophers and thinkers gave birth to science and knowledge, so we can taste the fruit of inventions, creations, all the magnificent things thats science had brought to human life. Science have answer for many things but does it have answer for everything? logically, i doubt it.

religions can provide solutions for many things but why there'are still unexplain things in life? human stories and history explained.

Richard dawkins a famous atheist and thinkers, wrote books about selfish gene and the god delusion, many atheist worship his thinking as progressive and revolutionary, even there's a trend among atheist today whenever they encounter a debate about religions, they will sometimes quoting dawkins. many atheist idolize great philosophers and thinkers as their gods. some called themselves platonians, aristotelians, but for me they are not gods, but teachers. i admire their works, create milestone of human civilization. but they are human, and human are capable of error. they could be wrong. the fundamental rule and very basic of logic, is to doubt everything. Skeptism is a common thing in philosophy.
atheism is to doubt the very existence of god. but somehow atheist forgot to doubt their own. in logic we should be skeptic.

and then there're long debate about creationism vs evolution, and it's tiring. there're many proof from scientist and thinkers who believe in creationism, which refuted darwin's evolution theory, but also from the atheist side, they also have scientifically proof that creationism is false. many great books wrote by great thinkers, philosophers and scientist. but i learn from experience, that we should challenge everything that we read, not quite easily accepted those as truth. because in logical thinking, there're no such absolute truth, so what is the truth then? can we define the truth? logically and morally?from skeptic believer point of view, the truth is relative.

to comprehend the existence of God, we have to search within. deep in our inner being. it's not a logical search, it's a soul search. if there's a God, God must be transcendent. there'are many times in life, we are incapable to explain, or find some logical answers. for example we cant predict or foreseen what would gonna happen to us in let say 5 minutes later, we could makes plan, but in life there'are the unexpected, accident, incident, things that intangible. human always deal with uncertainty.

if atheism can explains every unanswered questions about life, logically. I would stand as a pround atheist today.

anyway it start by a simple question, why i am here? what is my purpose in life? it's not just eat, sleep, work, dating, married, raising a family, relationship, happiness, popularity, career, charity work, active in religious activity, etc, but must be more than that. i believe that we are worth for living, there's a divine purpose in each of us. bcause to believe it other wise it just degrading the worth of man.

we all have desire to find the truth, we seek the truth in every aspect of life, our curiousity of truth has brought us into this certain of time, this certain place, and this certain phase of life. we encountered the relativity truth in our daily life, but still it cant satisfied our deepest desire. we always in doubt. but i believe there's an absolute truth, the Truth, it's transcendent. and it's God.

to understand the existence of God, we have to put our logic in humility mode, it took a humble mind to believe. as was an atheist i dont believe in love, because love was against all my logic could comprehend and love with all it absurdity i once vowed to rejected.

to believe in God, makes me believe in goodness, i believe in hope, and love. there're times where i have to shut my logic and to have faith. it's not easy for me, because logic had been my only resourceful of guidance and survival in life. i know that i cant abandon my logic, but i learn to not only hear the voice of my head but also the voice of my heart. still it's a fierce battle sometimes, because i used to follow my logic not my heart. now i try to balance it, logic and faith, is it possible? yes, but it takes huge effort and amount of time. logic still be my torch of light, but now i learn wisdom to know the difference.

i know now, that when i believe to the transcendent of God, it cast my doubts away. when things are uncertain i have hope in certainty of God. when i know i cant foreseen the future but i have faith that God hold my future and i can be rest assured. when facts of life are so difficult to understand logically, i put my trust in God that maybe i dont have to understand why, but i know God will help me thru it.

to believe in God, it's simple. just have faith. without faith we cant see God. you know mathematic is logic rite? for example 2 + 2 = 4, the questions is how do you know that 2+2=4, re u sure? what makes 2+2 =4? because the rules of numbers? so what is numbers? the beginning of number is zero, null. it the same as nothingness. without zero there would not be 12345....etc. so it begins with nothingness. can u comperehend nothingness logically? i believe there's also some faith in mathematical thinking. so does with God.

i really grateful to believe in God. im grateful that God let me to find the Truth and the Truth really set me free.